minsan mahirap magbalatkayo
mahirap ikubli ang totoo para bumalik ang
nakasanayan. may pagkakataong matapos--
nasisiguro ko ngunit hindi pa panahon.
Mga nakawiwindang datapwat nakabibighaning
alaala -- mas naiisip tuwing Disyembre.
Na makapiling at makamit, kahit sa sandali
ang panahong nais balikan. Umasa magpakailanman.
Matatamis na ninanais. Mapapait na pangarap.
Masarap lang talagang magsulat ng mga tula't sanaysay lalo na't malamig na ang simoy ng hangin :)
constantly deals with nostalgia, hope, optimism and everything in between. Mostly random musings about the ordinary, but think again. A space to remind her of a past worth remembering and a future worth waiting for.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
are you..? will you..?
If I was down
Would your arms lift me up
to higher ground
With just the strength of your love
If I was lost
Would I find something in your eyes to lead me home
And if it all went wrong
Would you be there to hold
It's easy to be there through the good time
But when the times get hard
Would you stay or walk away
(CHORUS)
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Through whatever will be will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
When I need someone to hold
Someone there for me
Are you gonna be there
Be in my world
If it should all fall down
Will you be there
Be there to turn it around
Will you still care
Can I depend on you to see me through this life
And if it all goes wrong
Will you still make it right
It's easy to be there through the good times
But when the times get hard
Will you still be on my side
(CHORUS)
There with the arms to hold me
There with the love I need
Will you be there
Heart and soul I need to know
Are you gonna be there
Are you gonna still care
Are you gonna be
Will you stay by my side
Are you gonna be mine
Are you gonna be there
(CHORUS X 2)
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only time will tell. i always see you yet i just don't know when that moment will come.
Let it find its way.
Would your arms lift me up
to higher ground
With just the strength of your love
If I was lost
Would I find something in your eyes to lead me home
And if it all went wrong
Would you be there to hold
It's easy to be there through the good time
But when the times get hard
Would you stay or walk away
(CHORUS)
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Through whatever will be will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
When I need someone to hold
Someone there for me
Are you gonna be there
Be in my world
If it should all fall down
Will you be there
Be there to turn it around
Will you still care
Can I depend on you to see me through this life
And if it all goes wrong
Will you still make it right
It's easy to be there through the good times
But when the times get hard
Will you still be on my side
(CHORUS)
There with the arms to hold me
There with the love I need
Will you be there
Heart and soul I need to know
Are you gonna be there
Are you gonna still care
Are you gonna be
Will you stay by my side
Are you gonna be mine
Are you gonna be there
(CHORUS X 2)
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only time will tell. i always see you yet i just don't know when that moment will come.
Let it find its way.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
those pristine trains...
He is a man. He is an artist.He should know that the great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.
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Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before-- the attraction that brought them together--is impossible to explain. It is untouched in its purest state.
When desire is still in this purest state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready to celebrate the next blessing.
When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second.
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i really enjoyed this sem break. Though i did not have the rest i needed, it was still the break
i wanted; and you know what i mean. :) Thanks to the people who were there to listen and were just present during the 2 weeks.
And regcom friends, it was definitely the best prep/work days ever. More bonding time, alright?! I'll post the pictures soon. :)
to the special people in my life [whahaha you know who you guys are], we'll definitely go out anytime during the second sem. I'm sorry i was so busy and had no time to party and bond this sem break. marami akong ikukwento sa inyo.
Feel the adrenalin rush.
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Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before-- the attraction that brought them together--is impossible to explain. It is untouched in its purest state.
When desire is still in this purest state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready to celebrate the next blessing.
When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second.
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i really enjoyed this sem break. Though i did not have the rest i needed, it was still the break
i wanted; and you know what i mean. :) Thanks to the people who were there to listen and were just present during the 2 weeks.
And regcom friends, it was definitely the best prep/work days ever. More bonding time, alright?! I'll post the pictures soon. :)
to the special people in my life [whahaha you know who you guys are], we'll definitely go out anytime during the second sem. I'm sorry i was so busy and had no time to party and bond this sem break. marami akong ikukwento sa inyo.
Feel the adrenalin rush.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
a fresh start
this sem break is definitely the start of something "new". i've been so productive these past few days and with that unexpected change, i guess it's something worth blogging. :)
Also, there's a second sem with a very good schedule to look forward to.
and ASLA Congress next week! :)
Also, there's a second sem with a very good schedule to look forward to.
and ASLA Congress next week! :)
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Avenue Q!
After it's recent sold out run, Atlantis Productions' hit staging of the Tony Award Winning Broadway Musical AVENUE Q will be back in Manila spreading some holiday cheer this December 2007 at the Carlos P. Romulo Auditorium, RCBC Plaza, Makati.
Winner of the 2004 Tony Award for Best Musical, AVENUE Q is most accurately described as a cross between SESAME STREET and RENT. Due to Full Puppet Nudity, parental discretion is advised.
Featured in the stellar cast are Rachel Alejandro as Kate Monster/Lucy T. Slut, Felix Rivera as Princeton/Rod, Frenchie Dy as Christmas Eve, Rycharde Everley as Brian, Joel Trinidad as Nicky, Trekkie Monster and others, Teenee Chan as Mrs. Thistletwat and Others and Aiza Seguera as Gary Coleman.
Directed by Bobby Garcia and Chari Arespacochaga, Production Design by Mio Infante, Lighting Design by Jay Aranda, Puppet Execution by Sam Fuentes and Marvin Choa based on the Original Broadway designs of Rick Lyons and Musical Direction by Jojo Malferari.
TICKETS NOW AVAILABLE FOR DECEMBER 22, 2:00 p.m.
Ticket Prices:
Orchestra Center : Php 1300.00
Orchestra Sides: Php 1100.00
Loge: Php 1000.00
Balcony: Php 500.00 --- (Not available anymore)
Contact JQ at 0917-8130368 or through this email address for orders/reservations. Please feel free to pass this on to those who might be interested to watch!
Winner of the 2004 Tony Award for Best Musical, AVENUE Q is most accurately described as a cross between SESAME STREET and RENT. Due to Full Puppet Nudity, parental discretion is advised.
Featured in the stellar cast are Rachel Alejandro as Kate Monster/Lucy T. Slut, Felix Rivera as Princeton/Rod, Frenchie Dy as Christmas Eve, Rycharde Everley as Brian, Joel Trinidad as Nicky, Trekkie Monster and others, Teenee Chan as Mrs. Thistletwat and Others and Aiza Seguera as Gary Coleman.
Directed by Bobby Garcia and Chari Arespacochaga, Production Design by Mio Infante, Lighting Design by Jay Aranda, Puppet Execution by Sam Fuentes and Marvin Choa based on the Original Broadway designs of Rick Lyons and Musical Direction by Jojo Malferari.
TICKETS NOW AVAILABLE FOR DECEMBER 22, 2:00 p.m.
Ticket Prices:
Orchestra Center : Php 1300.00
Orchestra Sides: Php 1100.00
Loge: Php 1000.00
Balcony: Php 500.00 --- (Not available anymore)
Contact JQ at 0917-8130368 or through this email address for orders/reservations. Please feel free to pass this on to those who might be interested to watch!
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
slow dancing in a burning room
yeah.. i didn't notice it has been burnt for a long time ago..
talk about trying to "rekindle the flame"...
useless, isn't it? even the friendship... is it gone forever? you said we'd be friends albeit the misunderstandings and the conflicting issues....
but what's happening now? i think i've lost a friend.. a very close friend even for that matter.
my nostalgia is not doing me anything good at all, but this triggered my "reaching out".. it's sad, so sad.. about what's happening with one of my best buddies and me right now...but what can i do?
I DON'T KNOW.
ang gusto ko lang talaga, magkaayusan... ibalik ang pagkakaibigan, at wala nang away pa.
Lord, kaw na lang po bahala.
we pulled too many false alarms.
talk about trying to "rekindle the flame"...
useless, isn't it? even the friendship... is it gone forever? you said we'd be friends albeit the misunderstandings and the conflicting issues....
but what's happening now? i think i've lost a friend.. a very close friend even for that matter.
my nostalgia is not doing me anything good at all, but this triggered my "reaching out".. it's sad, so sad.. about what's happening with one of my best buddies and me right now...but what can i do?
I DON'T KNOW.
ang gusto ko lang talaga, magkaayusan... ibalik ang pagkakaibigan, at wala nang away pa.
Lord, kaw na lang po bahala.
we pulled too many false alarms.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
setting it free
it's like a bird that i've set free..
it's gone forever.
and i have to finally let it go.
if it comes back, then perhaps by that time, i'll be glad to accept it again.
it's gone forever.
and i have to finally let it go.
if it comes back, then perhaps by that time, i'll be glad to accept it again.
Monday, September 10, 2007
.
parting is such sweet sorrow.
and crying is definitely good. i think i want more of it in the next few weeks or so.
and crying is definitely good. i think i want more of it in the next few weeks or so.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
1408
add these numbers, you get 13. (hint: parallelism with something eventful)
still don't have any idea what i'm talking about? hahaha... i'll tell you personally if you want to discover the real deal about it. :)
I'm ALONE at home right now, and watching quality horror movies is definitely an ingenious idea to divert one's mindset in being stressed in all of life's complexities.
But when you do, be freaking damn prepared of the ramifications. I'm not, so i guess that's the downside of it......
(and to think i'm used to seeing "paranormals" and feeling manifestations especially in our ancestral house...)
"Why do you think people believe in ghosts? For fun? NO. It's the prospect of something... after death." (just a quote from the movie)
You just can't take away the bad memories. Sometimes you just have to live with it.
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it's not a really good movie, but pretty much okay to entertain and keep the mind awake.
still don't have any idea what i'm talking about? hahaha... i'll tell you personally if you want to discover the real deal about it. :)
I'm ALONE at home right now, and watching quality horror movies is definitely an ingenious idea to divert one's mindset in being stressed in all of life's complexities.
But when you do, be freaking damn prepared of the ramifications. I'm not, so i guess that's the downside of it......
(and to think i'm used to seeing "paranormals" and feeling manifestations especially in our ancestral house...)
"Why do you think people believe in ghosts? For fun? NO. It's the prospect of something... after death." (just a quote from the movie)
You just can't take away the bad memories. Sometimes you just have to live with it.
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it's not a really good movie, but pretty much okay to entertain and keep the mind awake.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
ways to turn down a man [repost]
haha!!
HE: Can I buy you a drink?
SHE: Actually, I'd rather have the money.
HE: I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face like yours.
SHE: I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face like yours.
HE: Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice?
SHE: Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.
HE: How did you get to be so beautiful?
SHE: I must've been given your share.
HE: Go on, don't be shy. Ask me out.
SHE: Okay, get out.
HE: I think I could make you very happy.
SHE: Why? Are you leaving?
HE: What would you say if I asked you to marry me?
SHE: Nothing. I can't talk and laugh at the same time.
HE: Can I have your name?
SHE: Why? Don't you already have one?
HE: Shall we go see a movie?
SHE: I've already seen it.
HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Hiding from you.
HE: Haven't I seen you some place before?
SHE: Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.
HE: Is this seat empty?
SHE: Yes and this one will be if you sit down.
HE: So, what do you do for a living?
SHE: I'm a female impersonator.
HE: Hey baby, what's your sign?
SHE: Do not enter.
HE: Your body is like a temple.
SHE: Sorry there are no services today.
HE: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
SHE: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.
HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Where i'll be the rest of your life- in your wildest dreams.
:)) witty. witty.
HE: Can I buy you a drink?
SHE: Actually, I'd rather have the money.
HE: I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face like yours.
SHE: I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face like yours.
HE: Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice?
SHE: Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.
HE: How did you get to be so beautiful?
SHE: I must've been given your share.
HE: Go on, don't be shy. Ask me out.
SHE: Okay, get out.
HE: I think I could make you very happy.
SHE: Why? Are you leaving?
HE: What would you say if I asked you to marry me?
SHE: Nothing. I can't talk and laugh at the same time.
HE: Can I have your name?
SHE: Why? Don't you already have one?
HE: Shall we go see a movie?
SHE: I've already seen it.
HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Hiding from you.
HE: Haven't I seen you some place before?
SHE: Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.
HE: Is this seat empty?
SHE: Yes and this one will be if you sit down.
HE: So, what do you do for a living?
SHE: I'm a female impersonator.
HE: Hey baby, what's your sign?
SHE: Do not enter.
HE: Your body is like a temple.
SHE: Sorry there are no services today.
HE: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
SHE: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.
HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Where i'll be the rest of your life- in your wildest dreams.
:)) witty. witty.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
what songs can do
To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.
(I miss you by Incubus)
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amazing what songs can really do in this time of the morning.. this song just struck me. i guess it's time to compose another song. :)
my friends really give me the best advices ever. that's why they're called friends. thanks, guys. :)
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.
(I miss you by Incubus)
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amazing what songs can really do in this time of the morning.. this song just struck me. i guess it's time to compose another song. :)
my friends really give me the best advices ever. that's why they're called friends. thanks, guys. :)
Friday, August 03, 2007
happy birthday, mom!
Happy birthday, Ma! I can't wait for you to be back...You're definitely one of my prized treasures.
I miss you so much...
I love you.
I miss you so much...
I love you.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
DIAGNOSIS AT ITS FINEST
Before it was chemotherapy, now you're going to tell the whole family that another solution's pericardiostomy???
I sometimes think that prolonging his life will only prolong the agony... but then again, this is mercy killing that i'm thinking.. I'm sorry...
Daaaaaaaamn it. I can't stop worrying about my grandpa even though I couldn't really do anything much anymore.
I need a miracle. I need your prayers...if it's not too much to ask..
God bless you.
I sometimes think that prolonging his life will only prolong the agony... but then again, this is mercy killing that i'm thinking.. I'm sorry...
Daaaaaaaamn it. I can't stop worrying about my grandpa even though I couldn't really do anything much anymore.
I need a miracle. I need your prayers...if it's not too much to ask..
God bless you.
Monday, July 23, 2007
distracted. too. much.
im speechless, and still distracted after hearing the bad news.
Support. It's the only cure???? What the hell? I knew it was that malignant ever since God knows when!! I'm so frustrated, and even disappointed that this happened.. but I still feel sorry about it...
I want to cry, but my heart has been numb for weeks now. Besides, crying just makes my chest hurt even more...
I have my own problems, and I still need to focus... :((
God help me. Please. I'm too annoyed to study.
Support. It's the only cure???? What the hell? I knew it was that malignant ever since God knows when!! I'm so frustrated, and even disappointed that this happened.. but I still feel sorry about it...
I want to cry, but my heart has been numb for weeks now. Besides, crying just makes my chest hurt even more...
I have my own problems, and I still need to focus... :((
God help me. Please. I'm too annoyed to study.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
on nostalgia and heartaches
As i am writing this, I have pondered on the what-have-been's and the what-might-have-been's while experiencing the heartache that has been inherently bugging me lately. It's not the normal heartache that most people often associate with love (well, you might add that to the probable reasons why i'm hurting) but the literal heartaches, chest pains, and the like.
The road hasn't been smooth for the past few days, and if i'd include this sickness as part of those "bumps" we often call problems, then i'd be getting sicker and weaker by the minute. Nostalgia might have added its impact on my emotions, how i felt ecstatic and content about life. Maybe it's just strange how I easily start comparing the past from what's currently going on in this journey....
I hate it when my chest suddenly hurts without any reason at all.. (well, who would not?) but maybe this is another way of diverting my thoughts to be able to "forget" the not-so-good events that transpired a couple of days/weeks ago. Yes, i'd rather be a masochist right now than drown in my 'emo' world and still feel bad emotionally and physically. At least the former's even milder than the latter. That I would definitely choose over the other.
I am healthy. I know i am.. this heartache is triggered by the stress and all those silly thoughts that have been running in my mind while studying for a very busy day later. Can someone mend this "heartache"? Even just for a day... i'd really appreciate it.
I'm so grateful that whenever i think of my friends and my family, the pain gradually stops. At least for now. Thank God.
Before i stop writing, just a quick rundown of random phrases/lines that have touched my ego... (pardon the incoherence):
You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
True love doesn't have a happy ending: True love doesn't have an ending.
Love is like heaven but it can hurt like hell.
The best feelings are those that have no words to describe them.
We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
Now back to reality. I'm really hoping for a good day later.. God bless you.
The road hasn't been smooth for the past few days, and if i'd include this sickness as part of those "bumps" we often call problems, then i'd be getting sicker and weaker by the minute. Nostalgia might have added its impact on my emotions, how i felt ecstatic and content about life. Maybe it's just strange how I easily start comparing the past from what's currently going on in this journey....
I hate it when my chest suddenly hurts without any reason at all.. (well, who would not?) but maybe this is another way of diverting my thoughts to be able to "forget" the not-so-good events that transpired a couple of days/weeks ago. Yes, i'd rather be a masochist right now than drown in my 'emo' world and still feel bad emotionally and physically. At least the former's even milder than the latter. That I would definitely choose over the other.
I am healthy. I know i am.. this heartache is triggered by the stress and all those silly thoughts that have been running in my mind while studying for a very busy day later. Can someone mend this "heartache"? Even just for a day... i'd really appreciate it.
I'm so grateful that whenever i think of my friends and my family, the pain gradually stops. At least for now. Thank God.
Before i stop writing, just a quick rundown of random phrases/lines that have touched my ego... (pardon the incoherence):
You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.
True love doesn't have a happy ending: True love doesn't have an ending.
Love is like heaven but it can hurt like hell.
The best feelings are those that have no words to describe them.
We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
Now back to reality. I'm really hoping for a good day later.. God bless you.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
every time with you
it took me quite a while
to realize what i feel inside
i was stuck in the past, all my fears i tried to hide
i couldn't believe this,
your love has made me see real bliss
refrain
when i look into your eyes, it's a mystery
of a love that would last for eternity
chorus
'Cause every time with you always feels like the first time,
and every moment without you is like a poem without a rhyme
'cause every time with you is like a dream come true
it's more than a fantasy, the love i have for you
days and nights may pass away
i hope and pray this love's here to stay
just promise me you'll be there, that you'll never cease to care
hold me tight, don't let go;
i'll never leave you...that's for sure
refrain
when i look into your eyes, it's a mystery
of a love that would last for eternity
repeat chorus
bridge
no words are left to explain
how much i've changed
we have each other, may this linger forever
repeat chorus.... :) (one note higher)
copyright June 14, 07
to realize what i feel inside
i was stuck in the past, all my fears i tried to hide
i couldn't believe this,
your love has made me see real bliss
refrain
when i look into your eyes, it's a mystery
of a love that would last for eternity
chorus
'Cause every time with you always feels like the first time,
and every moment without you is like a poem without a rhyme
'cause every time with you is like a dream come true
it's more than a fantasy, the love i have for you
days and nights may pass away
i hope and pray this love's here to stay
just promise me you'll be there, that you'll never cease to care
hold me tight, don't let go;
i'll never leave you...that's for sure
refrain
when i look into your eyes, it's a mystery
of a love that would last for eternity
repeat chorus
bridge
no words are left to explain
how much i've changed
we have each other, may this linger forever
repeat chorus.... :) (one note higher)
copyright June 14, 07
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
emptiness
Dumadalas na ang unos.
Hanggang kailan pa kaya ito? (alam kong may katapusan ang lahat--- kalungkutan man o kasiyahan.....)
No words are left to describe this emotion. I just had to blurt this out. I don't want STRESS to interrupt me while I'm studying for the finals...
May God be with me.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
black-out
Have you ever had that feeling wherein you completely forgot everything that you studied and you just don't understand how that happened when you have even reviewed for that specific type of problem for x number of times???
I just hate myself right now. GAAHHH!!! I took my Calculus LT3 a few minutes ago and there was this "ladder problem" that I completely forgot how to solve. To think that it was one of my favorite problems when I reviewed because I understood and solved it correctly, and now I have completely messed all my solutions. Arrghh!!!!!
At least I'm sure of my other answers.. (i think)
Sorry for ranting over a small problem. It's just that I knew the solution but my memory failed me right then and there. sayang lang talaga..
What's done is done. It's futile to repent over this, anyway. It's a matter of releasing the stress through blogging as I try to forget that pitiful incident.
Now back to proofreading the lab reports.
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