2012: Of Firsts, Risks, and Hopes

It has been my personal tradition to write a year-ender post to look back and be thankful for both the joys and the tears.

I remember posting this to welcome 2012: "Today, you will be afraid to take that leap of faith and you wished you did 2 years ago. But if you will let me, life will unfold itself the way you want it to be. You will reach that destination and take a glimpse of that past when you had that regret, remaining silent while tears fall down your cheeks. For this time, you are speechless and ecstatic at the infinite possibilities that welcome you." This was how I envisioned 2012 telling me, how this year ought to be MY year.

True enough, the year of the Dragon has given me loads of memories that make me so grateful. It has been a year of new experiences, definitely the year that made me so productive both at work and even in my social life. I have gone to 4 concerts, shared more music, taught summer classes, made new relationships, had a great birthday celebration, began my Masters (with perfect results) and many many more. Though there may have been a couple of sad moments, this year reminded me to always remain content with how good life has been for me and my loved ones.

Indeed, life has unfolded the way I wanted it to be this 2012. I have already let go of that one burden I've always held on for years and I'm glad someone saved me from the past. This year has been better with you around that I can only hope for us to make many memories with each other. (Tu sais que c'est toi :)) ❤

My wishes for 2013 are plain and simple: to be blessed with good health, success and more love. May there be new beginnings and even stronger friendships with old friends, all full of hope to reach whatever we desire and aspire.

2012 was great but I know my 2013 will even be better. For this, I thank you, Lord.

Here's to more infinite possibilities this 2013. Have a happy and meaningful new year! ☺

❤, [sas-g]

"One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching" -- Unknown

Risk is the Road to Reason

"Today, you will be afraid to take that leap of faith and you wished you did 2 years ago. But if you will let me, life will unfold itself the way you want it to be. You will reach that destination and take a glimpse of that past when you had that regret, remaining silent while tears fall down your cheeks. For this time, you are speechless and ecstatic at the infinite possibilities that welcome you." - 2012

For me, 2011 was a year of eccentricities, surprises and risks. I made a wish in 2010 and it was surely granted in the second quarter of the year. I found myself venturing into that uncertainty without looking back. Surely a bold move, but with that risk came a wonderfully unexpected reward - that which I will always treasure. 

Just like any year, it also had its ups and downs. From having dilemmas here and there, reunions and dates with friends,  and literally defying gravity, how can I forget 2011? But that bad fall resulted to a pinched nerve or to be more technical, L5 radiculopathy. I have had back pains for months but thankfully, therapy does wonders although I may still have clicking joints at the back. I could only wish this fall has something good to offer me, apart from the so-called lessons that it brings.

I found myself growing and becoming more mature this 2011. There have been so many firsts this year, God knows I have overworked myself. In fact, too much work made me question my social life, and that one important thing I have yet to clear up. If there is something to be learned this 2011, I guess it would be this:

"Be clear, and make IT clear."

The eccentric part is when things suddenly seem so vague, courage just can't be found.  While it is true that "love rewards the brave", doubt continues to cloud judgment. Honestly, how much is too much? How often does one have to give that someone the benefit of the doubt? How long must one have to wait?

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So, 2011 may have given endless opportunities yet it was unable to supply the answers  I badly needed. Or maybe, it's just a matter of balance. That even if the questions haven't been answered [yet], time allows one to fuel that passion to prepare oneself for a new moment of letting one's guard down.

But really, I am still hopeful that everything will be - as it must and should be. I sound teleological but this only happens when clarity isn't within reach, especially when the odds are against having a reasonable explanation for it. After all, why must one seek for answers and explanation when it does not have to be answered and explained? This state of uncertainty proves that there is something more than the mind and deeper than myself. There is love.

As a graduate of the natural sciences, I may have been too engrossed in the idea of seeking for answers but do I really need to now? Is that all there is for us? I guess not. Yes, the absurdity that happened in 2011 will always remain unanswered - even in 2012 or until 2015. I just have to trust and for the first time, rely on that faith.

"Take that leap and endure the pain if you have to. I tell you,  faith will make the answers realizable and the reasons knowable, giving you the clarity you have always wanted."  - Risk

Have a crazy and fulfilling 2012! :)

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 “It's not because things are difficult that we dare not venture. It's because we dare not venture that they are difficult.” - Seneca