2012: Of Firsts, Risks, and Hopes

It has been my personal tradition to write a year-ender post to look back and be thankful for both the joys and the tears.

I remember posting this to welcome 2012: "Today, you will be afraid to take that leap of faith and you wished you did 2 years ago. But if you will let me, life will unfold itself the way you want it to be. You will reach that destination and take a glimpse of that past when you had that regret, remaining silent while tears fall down your cheeks. For this time, you are speechless and ecstatic at the infinite possibilities that welcome you." This was how I envisioned 2012 telling me, how this year ought to be MY year.

True enough, the year of the Dragon has given me loads of memories that make me so grateful. It has been a year of new experiences, definitely the year that made me so productive both at work and even in my social life. I have gone to 4 concerts, shared more music, taught summer classes, made new relationships, had a great birthday celebration, began my Masters (with perfect results) and many many more. Though there may have been a couple of sad moments, this year reminded me to always remain content with how good life has been for me and my loved ones.

Indeed, life has unfolded the way I wanted it to be this 2012. I have already let go of that one burden I've always held on for years and I'm glad someone saved me from the past. This year has been better with you around that I can only hope for us to make many memories with each other. (Tu sais que c'est toi :)) ❤

My wishes for 2013 are plain and simple: to be blessed with good health, success and more love. May there be new beginnings and even stronger friendships with old friends, all full of hope to reach whatever we desire and aspire.

2012 was great but I know my 2013 will even be better. For this, I thank you, Lord.

Here's to more infinite possibilities this 2013. Have a happy and meaningful new year! ☺

❤, [sas-g]

"One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching" -- Unknown

The Road So Far

"Though you don't have a clue, love has found its way to you."  - Unfold (acg ©2012)

I started this year having doubts at so many things - trapped at this crossroad, each path offering infinite possibilities to grow and find myself, knowing I am quite certain there is something that I still haven't found yet. This certainty was all that I needed to allow life to unfold itself before my eyes.

And it did.

January was a Hello to the many successes that I still have yet to discover. Despite having the dilemma of doing even greater things, it was a tough call whether to stay or go, or do something else. To say that this month was eventful will be an understatement. Every single day meant a new goal or challenge, seeing how every chance opened new windows for discovering myself.

February was even better as I both said Hello to the acceptance of a goodbye and Farewell to my frequent dose of so-called inspiration. That one reason for allowing me to let love in was just there but really never here. This is not about letting go, but rather facing the reality of learning to let go as I am off to something even better and concrete. Definitely a challenge that I have now accepted.

Aside from work and love both colliding at the first quarter of 2012, I've also been blessed to share my song in the LIKKAS week, collaborating with a colleague and just enjoying the gift of music. AJ Rafael's concert was also remarkable, especially when it was my first time to watch a concert alone due to changes in schedule. That made it even more memorable! It was a perfect night to contemplate and reminisce what were and what could have been.

Singing "Someday" - an original composition

Singing "Tadhana" by Up Dharma Down with Ryza Martinez

 

And to recall what I wrote in my previous post, I imagine 2012 telling me that "Today, you will be afraid to take that leap of faith and you wished you did 2 years ago. But if you will let me, life will unfold itself the way you want it to be. You will reach that destination and take a glimpse of that past when you had that regret, remaining silent while tears fall down your cheeks. For this time, you are speechless and ecstatic at the infinite possibilities that welcome you."  I must admit, teaching was not one of my so-called dreams back then but now that I've immersed myself in this realm, I come to find solace in it as I continuously learn not just from the experience itself but also from those casual conversations with my students who made me even more patient than before.  Life has slowly unfolded and showed me that there are so many things out there waiting to be known. There are so many wishes waiting to be granted, if only I let them. As such, this year will be intended for more discernment hoping I'll reach that destination real soon. Hoping that as 2012 progresses, I'll be in awe of what I feel and be grateful that I have found what I truly love.

The real struggle of finding one's love never ends. It never is enough to just settle for knowing and accepting. The matter itself requires a constant battle to strive and give more reasons why it's best to allow oneself to be vulnerable, waiting for the moment of truth not realizing it has been there all along.

It was a great start, 2012. Keep surprising me with good memories. :)

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Addendum: Whitney Houston's passing was really saddening for me. Her songs will forever be remembered together with the many memories that have become one with them. RIP, Whitney. :(