Med Talk

They say that one can never control the heart because it is an involuntary muscle. What the heck! hahah... pardon my freaking corny joke. I just need a laugh.. Hahaha :)

I've just had my 2D-Echo test, and I admit that it was a bit painful.. for an ultrasound of sorts...Never did I expect it to be painful because of what I have seen on TV. Nevertheless, the doctor said it was just normal to feel such pains.

The final reading will be given after 3 days and perhaps, it'll help me and my doctor know what my actual problem is. Difficulties in breathing, chest pains, fast heart beats and the like were symptoms of my diagnosis and abnormal heart beats shown by the ECG which was written and described as Cardiomyopathy. It's a serious disease and I just realized it was distinguished by my cardiologist long before I knew it.

To tell you the truth, I'm scared.. because I know the possible ramifications of this sickness. I know I have been working too much lately and that my being so workaholic made me feel these.. add the pressure, stress and all the worries that I've had for the past 2 semesters and even for the previous year... oh, God.

I just hope that when the final results come, I'd be glad for my condition.

On another note, after completing and watching some episodes of House Seasons 1 and 2 again, I fully realized that my passion of becoming a doctor never faded. It's really good to know what you truly love and like.... and that this realization will help me fulfill my dream even better than before.

This heart condition makes me want to become a doctor even more, except that my dream specialization is neurosurgery.

And by that time, I'd be happy to replace Dr. Foreman in House's Department soon. [hahahaha!]

Summer classes will be starting next week..have to seize the days and nights when I can still rest..then I can pray that my grades will not let me down.

Godspeed.