sharps and flats

It has always been a part of my so-called tradition to write a blog "year-ender" of sorts before i say goodbye to 2007 and hello to hopefully a peaceful and fruitful 2008. But just to give this entry a twist, let me share with you a list of random things that can encapsulate this very eventful year:

eleven minutes
shuffle
karaoke
beach
antipolo
philo
scott peck
ym
bio
jabberwocky
amazing race
unbearable lightness of being
regcom
happy happy joy joy
sweet irony
every time with you
how does something beautiful fall apart
purpose driven life
spongebob
14
bacolod
violin, piano and guitar
hp7
nano
never the same
pride
86236
phenomenology
stalker issues
blogs
bros
twin
itunes
sleepless nights
eastwood
podium
asla
gateway
katipunan
v.p.
1408
dna
rubik's cube
p.s.
little prince
jamming
lolo
98
3:14
PnE
Red jumpsuit apparatus
kahit kailan
prutas
numbers
g.a
house
peter petrelli
bittersweet freedom
sharps and flats


...and the list goes on and on.... So far, those were a few of the most memorable and treasured events/"ideas" that will let me remember the year that was. I've had a lot of "firsts" and "lasts" this year; i have learned that life can be so cruel at certain points of our lives but it also gives us our fair share of luck and blessings.

2007 is coming to an end... it has been one of my toughest years though i still wish i could relive those unforgettable events again. But hey, another chapter of our lives awaits us. Hope you’ll still be part of my 2008 and the many years to come! Happy New Year! :)

start the change and progress but never leave the memories behind.

far away (?)

it has been a long time... but i've realized we're not so far away each other after all.


and if fate really wants our roads to cross again, then so be it.



happy birthday. :) i miss you. :D

pagnanais

minsan mahirap magbalatkayo
mahirap ikubli ang totoo para bumalik ang
nakasanayan. may pagkakataong matapos--
nasisiguro ko ngunit hindi pa panahon.
Mga nakawiwindang datapwat nakabibighaning
alaala -- mas naiisip tuwing Disyembre.

Na makapiling at makamit, kahit sa sandali
ang panahong nais balikan. Umasa magpakailanman.

Matatamis na ninanais. Mapapait na pangarap.



Masarap lang talagang magsulat ng mga tula't sanaysay lalo na't malamig na ang simoy ng hangin :)

are you..? will you..?

If I was down
Would your arms lift me up
to higher ground
With just the strength of your love

If I was lost
Would I find something in your eyes to lead me home

And if it all went wrong
Would you be there to hold
It's easy to be there through the good time
But when the times get hard
Would you stay or walk away

(CHORUS)
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Through whatever will be will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
When I need someone to hold
Someone there for me
Are you gonna be there

Be in my world
If it should all fall down
Will you be there
Be there to turn it around
Will you still care
Can I depend on you to see me through this life
And if it all goes wrong
Will you still make it right
It's easy to be there through the good times
But when the times get hard
Will you still be on my side

(CHORUS)

There with the arms to hold me
There with the love I need
Will you be there
Heart and soul I need to know

Are you gonna be there
Are you gonna still care
Are you gonna be
Will you stay by my side
Are you gonna be mine
Are you gonna be there

(CHORUS X 2)
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only time will tell. i always see you yet i just don't know when that moment will come.

Let it find its way.

those pristine trains...

He is a man. He is an artist.He should know that the great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.
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Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before-- the attraction that brought them together--is impossible to explain. It is untouched in its purest state.

When desire is still in this purest state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready to celebrate the next blessing.

When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second.

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i really enjoyed this sem break. Though i did not have the rest i needed, it was still the break
i wanted; and you know what i mean. :) Thanks to the people who were there to listen and were just present during the 2 weeks.

And regcom friends, it was definitely the best prep/work days ever. More bonding time, alright?! I'll post the pictures soon. :)

to the special people in my life [whahaha you know who you guys are], we'll definitely go out anytime during the second sem. I'm sorry i was so busy and had no time to party and bond this sem break. marami akong ikukwento sa inyo.



Feel the adrenalin rush.

a fresh start

this sem break is definitely the start of something "new". i've been so productive these past few days and with that unexpected change, i guess it's something worth blogging. :)


Also, there's a second sem with a very good schedule to look forward to.





and ASLA Congress next week! :)

Avenue Q!

After it's recent sold out run, Atlantis Productions' hit staging of the Tony Award Winning Broadway Musical AVENUE Q will be back in Manila spreading some holiday cheer this December 2007 at the Carlos P. Romulo Auditorium, RCBC Plaza, Makati.


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Directed by Bobby Garcia and Chari Arespacochaga, Production Design by Mio Infante, Lighting Design by Jay Aranda, Puppet Execution by Sam Fuentes and Marvin Choa based on the Original Broadway designs of Rick Lyons and Musical Direction by Jojo Malferari.

TICKETS NOW AVAILABLE FOR DECEMBER 22, 2:00 p.m.


Ticket Prices:
Orchestra Center : Php 1300.00
Orchestra Sides: Php 1100.00
Loge: Php 1000.00
Balcony: Php 500.00 --- (Not available anymore)

Contact JQ at 0917-8130368 or through this email address for orders/reservations. Please feel free to pass this on to those who might be interested to watch!

current mindset

it's only set aside. :)

slow dancing in a burning room

yeah.. i didn't notice it has been burnt for a long time ago..

talk about trying to "rekindle the flame"...

useless, isn't it? even the friendship... is it gone forever? you said we'd be friends albeit the misunderstandings and the conflicting issues....

but what's happening now? i think i've lost a friend.. a very close friend even for that matter.

my nostalgia is not doing me anything good at all, but this triggered my "reaching out".. it's sad, so sad.. about what's happening with one of my best buddies and me right now...but what can i do?

I DON'T KNOW.

ang gusto ko lang talaga, magkaayusan... ibalik ang pagkakaibigan, at wala nang away pa.

Lord, kaw na lang po bahala.



we pulled too many false alarms.

setting it free

it's like a bird that i've set free..

it's gone forever.




and i have to finally let it go.


if it comes back, then perhaps by that time, i'll be glad to accept it again.

.

parting is such sweet sorrow.




and crying is definitely good. i think i want more of it in the next few weeks or so.

1408

add these numbers, you get 13. (hint: parallelism with something eventful)

still don't have any idea what i'm talking about? hahaha... i'll tell you personally if you want to discover the real deal about it. :)

I'm ALONE at home right now, and watching quality horror movies is definitely an ingenious idea to divert one's mindset in being stressed in all of life's complexities.

But when you do, be freaking damn prepared of the ramifications. I'm not, so i guess that's the downside of it......

(and to think i'm used to seeing "paranormals" and feeling manifestations especially in our ancestral house...)

"Why do you think people believe in ghosts? For fun? NO. It's the prospect of something... after death." (just a quote from the movie)

You just can't take away the bad memories. Sometimes you just have to live with it.

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it's not a really good movie, but pretty much okay to entertain and keep the mind awake.

ways to turn down a man [repost]

haha!!

HE: Can I buy you a drink?
SHE: Actually, I'd rather have the money.

HE: I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face like yours.
SHE: I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face like yours.

HE: Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice?
SHE: Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.

HE: How did you get to be so beautiful?
SHE: I must've been given your share.

HE: Go on, don't be shy. Ask me out.
SHE: Okay, get out.

HE: I think I could make you very happy.
SHE: Why? Are you leaving?

HE: What would you say if I asked you to marry me?
SHE: Nothing. I can't talk and laugh at the same time.

HE: Can I have your name?
SHE: Why? Don't you already have one?

HE: Shall we go see a movie?
SHE: I've already seen it.

HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Hiding from you.

HE: Haven't I seen you some place before?
SHE: Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.

HE: Is this seat empty?
SHE: Yes and this one will be if you sit down.

HE: So, what do you do for a living?
SHE: I'm a female impersonator.

HE: Hey baby, what's your sign?
SHE: Do not enter.

HE: Your body is like a temple.
SHE: Sorry there are no services today.

HE: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
SHE: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.

HE: Where have you been all my life?
SHE: Where i'll be the rest of your life- in your wildest dreams.

:)) witty. witty.

what songs can do

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

(I miss you by Incubus)
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amazing what songs can really do in this time of the morning.. this song just struck me. i guess it's time to compose another song. :)

my friends really give me the best advices ever. that's why they're called friends. thanks, guys. :)

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happy birthday, mom!

Happy birthday, Ma! I can't wait for you to be back...You're definitely one of my prized treasures.



I miss you so much...


I love you.

DIAGNOSIS AT ITS FINEST

Before it was chemotherapy, now you're going to tell the whole family that another solution's pericardiostomy???

I sometimes think that prolonging his life will only prolong the agony... but then again, this is mercy killing that i'm thinking.. I'm sorry...

Daaaaaaaamn it. I can't stop worrying about my grandpa even though I couldn't really do anything much anymore.


I need a miracle. I need your prayers...if it's not too much to ask..


God bless you.

distracted. too. much.

im speechless, and still distracted after hearing the bad news.

Support. It's the only cure???? What the hell? I knew it was that malignant ever since God knows when!! I'm so frustrated, and even disappointed that this happened.. but I still feel sorry about it...

I want to cry, but my heart has been numb for weeks now. Besides, crying just makes my chest hurt even more...

I have my own problems, and I still need to focus... :((

God help me. Please. I'm too annoyed to study.

on nostalgia and heartaches

As i am writing this, I have pondered on the what-have-been's and the what-might-have-been's while experiencing the heartache that has been inherently bugging me lately. It's not the normal heartache that most people often associate with love (well, you might add that to the probable reasons why i'm hurting) but the literal heartaches, chest pains, and the like.

The road hasn't been smooth for the past few days, and if i'd include this sickness as part of those "bumps" we often call problems, then i'd be getting sicker and weaker by the minute. Nostalgia might have added its impact on my emotions, how i felt ecstatic and content about life. Maybe it's just strange how I easily start comparing the past from what's currently going on in this journey....

I hate it when my chest suddenly hurts without any reason at all.. (well, who would not?) but maybe this is another way of diverting my thoughts to be able to "forget" the not-so-good events that transpired a couple of days/weeks ago. Yes, i'd rather be a masochist right now than drown in my 'emo' world and still feel bad emotionally and physically. At least the former's even milder than the latter. That I would definitely choose over the other.

I am healthy. I know i am.. this heartache is triggered by the stress and all those silly thoughts that have been running in my mind while studying for a very busy day later. Can someone mend this "heartache"? Even just for a day... i'd really appreciate it.

I'm so grateful that whenever i think of my friends and my family, the pain gradually stops. At least for now. Thank God.

Before i stop writing, just a quick rundown of random phrases/lines that have touched my ego... (pardon the incoherence):

You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand
what pain really is until you have lost it.

True love doesn't have a happy ending: True love doesn't have an ending.

Love is like heaven but it can hurt like hell.

The best feelings are those that have no words to describe them.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Now back to reality. I'm really hoping for a good day later.. God bless you.

every time with you

it took me quite a while
to realize what i feel inside
i was stuck in the past, all my fears i tried to hide
i couldn't believe this,
your love has made me see real bliss

refrain
when i look into your eyes, it's a mystery
of a love that would last for eternity


chorus
'Cause every time with you always feels like the first time,
and every moment without you is like a poem without a rhyme
'cause every time with you is like a dream come true
it's more than a fantasy, the love i have for you


days and nights may pass away
i hope and pray this love's here to stay
just promise me you'll be there, that you'll never cease to care
hold me tight, don't let go;
i'll never leave you...that's for sure

refrain
when i look into your eyes, it's a mystery
of a love that would last for eternity
repeat chorus

bridge
no words are left to explain
how much i've changed
we have each other, may this linger forever

repeat chorus.... :) (one note higher)


copyright June 14, 07

emptiness

Dumadalas na ang unos.

Hanggang kailan pa kaya ito? (alam kong may katapusan ang lahat--- kalungkutan man o kasiyahan.....)


No words are left to describe this emotion. I just had to blurt this out. I don't want STRESS to interrupt me while I'm studying for the finals...


May God be with me.

black-out

Have you ever had that feeling wherein you completely forgot everything that you studied and you just don't understand how that happened when you have even reviewed for that specific type of problem for x number of times???

I just hate myself right now. GAAHHH!!! I took my Calculus LT3 a few minutes ago and there was this "ladder problem" that I completely forgot how to solve. To think that it was one of my favorite problems when I reviewed because I understood and solved it correctly, and now I have completely messed all my solutions. Arrghh!!!!!

At least I'm sure of my other answers.. (i think)

Sorry for ranting over a small problem. It's just that I knew the solution but my memory failed me right then and there. sayang lang talaga..

What's done is done. It's futile to repent over this, anyway. It's a matter of releasing the stress through blogging as I try to forget that pitiful incident.

Now back to proofreading the lab reports.

Med Talk

They say that one can never control the heart because it is an involuntary muscle. What the heck! hahah... pardon my freaking corny joke. I just need a laugh.. Hahaha :)

I've just had my 2D-Echo test, and I admit that it was a bit painful.. for an ultrasound of sorts...Never did I expect it to be painful because of what I have seen on TV. Nevertheless, the doctor said it was just normal to feel such pains.

The final reading will be given after 3 days and perhaps, it'll help me and my doctor know what my actual problem is. Difficulties in breathing, chest pains, fast heart beats and the like were symptoms of my diagnosis and abnormal heart beats shown by the ECG which was written and described as Cardiomyopathy. It's a serious disease and I just realized it was distinguished by my cardiologist long before I knew it.

To tell you the truth, I'm scared.. because I know the possible ramifications of this sickness. I know I have been working too much lately and that my being so workaholic made me feel these.. add the pressure, stress and all the worries that I've had for the past 2 semesters and even for the previous year... oh, God.

I just hope that when the final results come, I'd be glad for my condition.

On another note, after completing and watching some episodes of House Seasons 1 and 2 again, I fully realized that my passion of becoming a doctor never faded. It's really good to know what you truly love and like.... and that this realization will help me fulfill my dream even better than before.

This heart condition makes me want to become a doctor even more, except that my dream specialization is neurosurgery.

And by that time, I'd be happy to replace Dr. Foreman in House's Department soon. [hahahaha!]

Summer classes will be starting next week..have to seize the days and nights when I can still rest..then I can pray that my grades will not let me down.

Godspeed.

Happy Happy Joy Joy!

I just won an IPOD SHUFFLE from Mcdo! Just buy any Float and try your luck!

It was a relief after having been sick and stressed lately....

Oh, happy happy day! hehehe....


I just hope my luck will last until the end of March. I really need luck for my health and also for the coming days...


God please help me.

*just a quick note: thanks to my closest friends who constantly cares for me and for just being there when I need you. You know who you are. We'll definitely celebrate after this hell's over!!!

'sociological' escapades

Thank you Lord, for I am so blessed.

I have had so many realizations today and it's all because of a simple yet meaningful experience that have helped me change my views about what REALITY is truly all about.

This experience wasn't planned, after meeting with the Guru and discuss the memorable things that are worth sharing... I guess it was just intended to happen.

I went with Jer at a place I never even knew what it was exactly and since he taught there, I was given the honor of observing him (haha, well yeah, i did observe your demeanor) as well as the society that we were currently in.

Frankly, I experienced this so-called "culture shock" at first. But since I've already learned why such things and cultures vary among others, I easily adapted and adjusted to what was "weird" and unusual at first.

Seeing how the people moved around that context, how the environment is completely different from my preconceived notions of THE "Environment" and how people saw and "interpreted" my lifestyle, I now understand how I should perceive society and why Sir Jer has always been telling me about my reality and my world.

I'm sorry for being a bit condescending, and for being "a big ego freak" sometimes.. it's just that I haven't really understood the context of how other people live.. and through this sociological experience, God has indeed planned this to happen. He wants me to realize something that I should've thought about a long time ago.

Sir, it was one hell of a tiring day.. but so many lessons will remain and be remembered. It was one practical application of what we have been studying in Sociology.

And as what you've said, "Now, you truly won't be able to forget me.." Yeah I really won't.. and will not. I'm learning reality and the difference between my perceptions and theirs.

Indeed, this has been a meaningful day and I'm more than contented and grateful to have experienced this.

the past... reawakened.

Finally after almost a month of being quiet here, I've got some reasons to blog and talk about how this day turned to be so significant yet tiring and harrassing all at the same time.

We just had our 2nd LT for Molfab (that's Molecular Fabric of Organisms) and it was definitely one successful way of making me insane and feel nauseated during and after the test. It was soooooo hard probably because I haven't taken Ch11, Ch12 and Org Chem yet.. which are all PREREQUISITES for this course... Nevertheless, I still managed to answer the damn test.. (talk about being a shiftee.....)

Looking at the bright side, I'm so glad it's over. (crossing my fingers and hoping I'd get a pleasing and satisfying mark, to say the very least)

After that harrassing and traumatic test and even receiving another not-so-bad news during Eco, I wanted to have my friends with me even just for a while to help me refresh my mood and relax despite the never-ending stress. God was right on time when He delivered twin's text message, as well as Adviser's and even Mikki's. Right then and there, I felt a little relieved and ecstatic that I still have my friends and my trusted ones with me in times of despair.

After meeting twin and talking about ambiguous subjects, there was this surprising moment that continued to amaze us until that last second that we were still together. The gang (the twins, twin's minion, and third party along with my adviser rene, bio-friends jj and mikki) strolled and talked about what exactly occurred and what was still occurring right in front of our naked eyes.

It's really difficult to type and elaborate more on that peculiar yet insightful incident. I'm just happy that all these happened today... after that dreadful freaking hell long test.. I'm finally realizing that the past has been brought back; that the "past" might still be considered the "present"; and that the memories of yesterday have been revived.

To think that WE ALL THOUGHT IT WAS OVER. Apparently NOT.

(only my closest friends can and will be able to understand if not all, at least almost all that I wrote here.. but to give you a pseudo-gist of how this significant and memorable day went... let me share with you a very fictitious dialog that jj typed a while ago, which was supposedly for our psych presentation..)

Symptoms, diagnosis, prominent persons and patients manifestations. asar sobrang antok na ako. heheheh. weird. hahaha. ang weird naman. V and X + W. sino pa ang magtutunggali sa puso ng inang reynang G!? whahahah! at si Y? ano nga ba ang papel ng dakilang enthusiast-cum-philo boy sa istorya?

V: G, pwede bang manligaw?
W: G i love you, sige babay punta pa ako sa party sa kabila
X: best friend, higher level na tayo..
Y: (dun sa sulok, nakatutok)
.
.
.
Z: sassy! nabundol ako!!

AGAIN, that was FICTION. NEVER INTENDED TO BE THE TRUTH... (a pseudo-gist, that is.)

That was weird. REALLY WEIRD. But to at least give some humor to all these, I decided to post it here.

Thanks for that, J! What a very significant point. :))

Now back to regular programming. Work, work and more work. God bless.

when confusion strikes again...

What is there to do when every alternative presented to you becomes confusing..? Of course there are still options and answers to problems... but because of time constraints, nothing much is left for you.

Why can't every person be appreciative of one's effort? Why can't some people be patient enough to realize that there are priorities other than what should be done? And why can't destiny make our roads meet again?

I have already been wanting to greet someone for God knows when but no matter how I try, it seems that the Lord wants me to wait even more. I just remembered this certain person the other night...realizing that time indeed flies so fast that it has almost been a year since we talked.

Too many walls have been built in between us.. too many dreams have been shattered around us.. If I seem to give up and still never win, deep in my heart.. I know the strength is within.

Time has almost healed the wounds; still, the memories will forever linger and bring back the should've/would've/could've been's.

There's no easy way out for all these confusion. I really need answers.

de-stressing

Today has been truly a stressful day.

We had our first ever Molecular Fabric, Lec Long Test and it was really, really confusing. It had 15 complex chapters for its coverage; unfortunately, I wasn't able to finish reviewing though it pays to carefully listen and understand the professor's discussion beforehand albeit the vague ideas that he often teaches.

It was exhausting, to think that it was a Modified Multiple Choice type of test (60 items) and the topics were those that I wasn't able to review that well. Nevertheless, after that nightmare, we tried reviewing the questions to check our answers and luckily, I got at least a sure 10 out of the 60 (not yet the exact score)...pretty much sums up the degree of difficulty of the test and the subject as well.

On a lighter note, I'm so glad that it's over. Next in line will be the lab works for tom and the SA Nueva Ecija Trip. Hoping that it'll be an exciting and peaceful experience.

And after all those stressful tests and serious class discussions (talk about eco), the twins attended the Service Awards for the Loyola Schools. I was flattered to have been invited by the awardee himself, from being THE most sought-after SA professor to becoming a close friend, [Sir] Jerry Apolonio.

Congratulations and cheers to the many years of magis and cura personalis, Sir! (oh sorry I meant Jer.. hehe.. im still trying to get used to it :p )

All the endless hirits and those jokes continue to cheer me up and relieve me of the stress caused by acads and all. Thanks for the company and the tawanan, twin and Jer! hehe.. looking forward to more of those bonding and kwentuhan moments with you both! And hopefully the others might join us as well!

Laughter is indeed the best medicine especially when one is mentally stressed. :)

worst day ever

Yesterday was just the WORST day of my entire college life.

It was not because of any failure or fight. It was another enemy.. also known as DYSMENORRHEA.

Truly, this sickness has been the most terrible punishment God gave to every woman. I couldn't understand why this has been my problem since high school, and yesterday was Judgment Day for me.

It started as just a mere headache, which I thought was normal since I already slept at 6 am for a particular project for our SA class. I had no choice but to sacrifice, hoping the pain would cease...

After having breakfast with Sir Jer and studying for Molfab, I started feeling abdominal pains already, but didn't mind it because of the lesson... Unfortunately, my legs and torso were becoming numb thus, I felt weak... I even tried to go to my Eco class at Bel but I couldn't take it anymore.

I had to leave, cut class and even my job fair shifts that day. When I was home, I really couldn't move. It was as if I had been paralyzed and all my energy got lost.

At least I didn't have to feel "paralyzed" today. I still feel pains but not that dreadful anymore. Thank God for Dolfenal, Ponstan SF and all those pain relievers. Without those, I wouldn't be able to walk or move.

Then again, I couldn't decipher the real reason why God gave all women this freaking damn sickness. Was it because of what Eve did? I don't think I'd consider this as a blessing...but that's part of life.... I guess I have no other choice but to live with it for as long as I live.

(change topic)

Just a digression... as I was checking my emails, I read my horoscope and it said,

Mend fences with someone from your past. That doesn't mean you two necessarily have to be friends again. (Heck, you may not even have to contact them directly.) But you do have to make peace with what happened.


I just saw him a while ago, but again and again, I couldn't say hi or even look at him since he was busy walking and talking at the same time... so I walked fast and pretended I didn't have any idea that he was there walking behind me.

Damn, I wanted to make amends already. I really wanted to mend fences with that certain someone from the past. Too bad, my ego won't let me.

Maybe it's not yet time. Maybe this conflict will never end. (I hope not.)

Hell Week at its Finest

Tired and in dire need of air... I'm about to suffocate and drown already.


God, help me.

Sickness

So many deadlines to meet, so many requirements to fulfill...yet so little time for finishing all these responsibilities. As such, I've been starting to feel sick-- not only physically but also mentally-drained and emotionally stressed. This year's not starting right. It just isn't fun as of the moment given all these reasons.

I have noticed that it isn't only me who's feeling sick and restless (probably a given already because I am a self-confessed insomniac) but also other people in school. Even my sociology professor already declared his absence for later's meeting. Fortunately, NO 730 a.m. class so there's more sleeping time(or not) for us but then, I've been looking forward to attending his class albeit the very early schedule just BECAUSE.... (You fill in the blanks, sir! hahah :p)

It's unusual for me to feel sick, I've always been energetic regardless of all the tension, CONFLICT and worries that I experience. Well of course, I do feel sober and weak sometimes; and now, I just don't feel like talking and spending much energy..

And speaking of conflict, I am still in quandary about how I must resolve this... or maybe never anymore. This has been inherently driving me sick as well since it started and even though I try forgetting all about it, I can't deny the fact that it's part of my college life and that it has been bugging me through those freaking damn signs and symbols...so long as the cause/factor of such conflict is still within the vicinity.

Enough about all these sicknesses. I better go back and finish reading and doing our presentation before I feel even more sleepy.

Godspeed. :)