Tis the Season of Gladness

Father Horacio de la Costa once said it so eloquently, that "Christmas is when we celebrate the unexpected; it is the festival of surprise," when "down is up and up is down", when suddenly, "in the very heart of earth, is heaven," and "the stars and the angels look down on the God who made them and God looks up at the things He made."


This is part of a very inspiring homily that I overheard last Dec. 22 at the Simbang Gabi held at the Gesu made by Fr. Magadia. Fortunately, this was made as an email and was sent to me. I've been wanting to have a copy of it ever since I last heard it and I felt the need to share it even though Christmas is almost over.

But is it really over?

As what Father H. de la Costa said, whenever we celebrate something surprising or unexpected, we feel Christmas in the air. It's appropriate especially for me that during these times of the holidays, I've been expecting something and until now, that "something" hasn't arrived JUST YET.

This has been the cause of my worries, the reason for my sadness when I should be merry and excited that I'm spending this wonderful time of the year with my loved ones. Though I know that "something" hasn't arrived yet, I am sure that Jesus will surely have some surprise prepared for me for the coming year.

And when this new year comes, I'm hoping that all my wishes will be granted in the same way that my awaited "surprise" will eventually happen.

I'm expecting the unexpected. I should.

Happy holidays and have a good and prosperous year ahead of you.

Sana nga lang..

While I was in the library, a feeling of being 'emo' and nostalgic all of a sudden hit me, causing some tiny bits of inspiration for me to create this poem/song of sorts...

This has yet to be mixed with a melody....soon. In the meantime, it's just a poem not meant to hurt/affect the readers negatively.
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Sana nga lang...

Kahit maraming dapat gawin
tila ika'y hindi matakasan
sa pag-iisip ng mga bagay na
di naman dapat bigyang kahulugan

Refrain:
Walang oras na di ka naaalala
'kaw pa rin ang mahalaga
kahit na alam kong hindi ako kasama....
di kasama sa plano mo....

Chorus:
Sana nga lang makalimutan ka na
at sana rin matahimik na..
Ako'y nalilito, nagugulo ang buhay ko
sa pagnanais na makapiling ka.. sa tuwina
Baliw nga ba ako nang mahulog ako sa'yo...?

Kahit maraming dapat isipin
'kaw pa rin ang nasa utak ko!
bakit ba nagkakagan'to??
nasaktan na't patuloy pa ring NANGANGARAP

(repeat refrain then Chorus)

Bridge:
Dapat na talagang tigilan
mga minimithing puro "suntok sa buwan"
Ikaw lang ang DAHILAN
NG BUONG KABALIWAN!

(repeat refrain then Chorus)

Lyrics: Copyright Dec. 13, 2006

the unexpected

What a day.

I have yet to update this blog due to so many significant acquaintances, memorable moments, and the like. It was like my week has been breezing smoothly albeit the hectic and loaded academic life because of something more inspiring. Or should I say, someone perhaps?

Just a quick overview of what happened yesterday (since I just realized it's already 3:26 in the morning)...

The morning started just right when I went to school realizing our venue was at some place where I had wanted to really check and visit recently (because of some foolish reasons that need not be mentioned hehe). At the same time, discussing our SA research topic was fun to start with, because of the many topics that crossed my mind about a connection that would really help me bridge our gap after a very long time. Next in line was taking that lucky and enjoying quiz in Molecular Fabric, I knew I was not that ready for the quiz given the fact that I just studied an hour and a half ago. Still, it was probably because of my interest that gave me inspiration in getting a good grade. Now I have more reasons to like this subject and motivate myself to even do better.

Lunchtime came, and after eating with my bio-b friends and meeting with twin and 3rd party, I decided to go to the library to read in advance my Eco notes and perhaps doze off for a few minutes before going to Bel and stressing myself in going upstairs, walking while bringing my heavy books and laptop with me.

Being in the lib is really a good thing, personally because of the atmosphere and the cozy ambience where one is surrounded by different kinds of books...geeky as it may seem, but the lighter side of hanging out there is having the time to "rest" ---> hopefully you do get the point. :)

After doing all those, resting, reading and reviewing, I decided to leave early for my next class. I wasn't really expecting for some surprise nor nightmare to happen. All I wanted was to leave early so I can arrive early for my next class as well. I guess it's true when most people say, "expect the unexpected" and yeah, I have seen what I should not have seen.

My so-called "nightmare" appeared to me once again, and this time... appeared subtly yet deadly. And what's worse is, another confrontation happened after my class. That was at 3pm.

So many questions came right then and there, when all those happened and perhaps the aftershock of the unexpected. I was really expecting to have an uneventful afternoon but hell no, IT WAS REALLY CREEPIER THAN I THOUGHT.

I can't believe what made fate decide to bring the pressure on. Even after those incidents ended, the mystery was unraveled at the end of the day. Manifestations here and there, it's as if tactics and strategies were laid on the table, trying to catch the right moment when serendipity would take its proper course. Be that as it may, I was pretending to pretend. All my intuitions were correct and yet, I continued on thinking about my destiny for that day.

Was it really meant to be? I couldn't erase my interpretations for all the clues that were shown. Well, my assumptions would always intervene and try to give me false hopes. But nevertheless, I think it's just appropriate to say that at the very least, seeing these turn into reality,

Now I know that you DO care.

Kahit papaano, naipakita mo rin pala na may malasakit ka rin sa paraang hindi madaling mawari. Napansin ko 'yun kahit hindi mo talaga gustong ipakita na ganun nga ang layunin mo.

Hayy... here I go again, trying to be vague for me to avoid creating those clues and signs that would lead those speculating to WHAT I have been saying here.

I don't know if I should feel ecstatic about this day. I had heard bad news here and there, aside from this, of course. I have yet to expect the unexpected. Perhaps all these are fresh preludes and introductions in my new chapter of the same novel.

Sana nga lang, magkausap na sa lalong mamadaling panahon.

I wanna reach out and feel you beside me.. someday I'll pray that I'll find the strength to turn to you and say.....
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Oh and as I was surfing the net, I tried this blogquiz.. It's completely irrelevant to this post but nevertheless, try this one too! :)

You Are An ENTJ

The Executive You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others. Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise. Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow. You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

What's Your Personality Type?

Please do pray for my lolo. He is really sick, serious conditions that would lead to the unexpected. Please do include him in your prayers......please please. Thank you.