worst day ever

Yesterday was just the WORST day of my entire college life.

It was not because of any failure or fight. It was another enemy.. also known as DYSMENORRHEA.

Truly, this sickness has been the most terrible punishment God gave to every woman. I couldn't understand why this has been my problem since high school, and yesterday was Judgment Day for me.

It started as just a mere headache, which I thought was normal since I already slept at 6 am for a particular project for our SA class. I had no choice but to sacrifice, hoping the pain would cease...

After having breakfast with Sir Jer and studying for Molfab, I started feeling abdominal pains already, but didn't mind it because of the lesson... Unfortunately, my legs and torso were becoming numb thus, I felt weak... I even tried to go to my Eco class at Bel but I couldn't take it anymore.

I had to leave, cut class and even my job fair shifts that day. When I was home, I really couldn't move. It was as if I had been paralyzed and all my energy got lost.

At least I didn't have to feel "paralyzed" today. I still feel pains but not that dreadful anymore. Thank God for Dolfenal, Ponstan SF and all those pain relievers. Without those, I wouldn't be able to walk or move.

Then again, I couldn't decipher the real reason why God gave all women this freaking damn sickness. Was it because of what Eve did? I don't think I'd consider this as a blessing...but that's part of life.... I guess I have no other choice but to live with it for as long as I live.

(change topic)

Just a digression... as I was checking my emails, I read my horoscope and it said,

Mend fences with someone from your past. That doesn't mean you two necessarily have to be friends again. (Heck, you may not even have to contact them directly.) But you do have to make peace with what happened.


I just saw him a while ago, but again and again, I couldn't say hi or even look at him since he was busy walking and talking at the same time... so I walked fast and pretended I didn't have any idea that he was there walking behind me.

Damn, I wanted to make amends already. I really wanted to mend fences with that certain someone from the past. Too bad, my ego won't let me.

Maybe it's not yet time. Maybe this conflict will never end. (I hope not.)

Hell Week at its Finest

Tired and in dire need of air... I'm about to suffocate and drown already.


God, help me.

Sickness

So many deadlines to meet, so many requirements to fulfill...yet so little time for finishing all these responsibilities. As such, I've been starting to feel sick-- not only physically but also mentally-drained and emotionally stressed. This year's not starting right. It just isn't fun as of the moment given all these reasons.

I have noticed that it isn't only me who's feeling sick and restless (probably a given already because I am a self-confessed insomniac) but also other people in school. Even my sociology professor already declared his absence for later's meeting. Fortunately, NO 730 a.m. class so there's more sleeping time(or not) for us but then, I've been looking forward to attending his class albeit the very early schedule just BECAUSE.... (You fill in the blanks, sir! hahah :p)

It's unusual for me to feel sick, I've always been energetic regardless of all the tension, CONFLICT and worries that I experience. Well of course, I do feel sober and weak sometimes; and now, I just don't feel like talking and spending much energy..

And speaking of conflict, I am still in quandary about how I must resolve this... or maybe never anymore. This has been inherently driving me sick as well since it started and even though I try forgetting all about it, I can't deny the fact that it's part of my college life and that it has been bugging me through those freaking damn signs and symbols...so long as the cause/factor of such conflict is still within the vicinity.

Enough about all these sicknesses. I better go back and finish reading and doing our presentation before I feel even more sleepy.

Godspeed. :)