worst day ever

Yesterday was just the WORST day of my entire college life.

It was not because of any failure or fight. It was another enemy.. also known as DYSMENORRHEA.

Truly, this sickness has been the most terrible punishment God gave to every woman. I couldn't understand why this has been my problem since high school, and yesterday was Judgment Day for me.

It started as just a mere headache, which I thought was normal since I already slept at 6 am for a particular project for our SA class. I had no choice but to sacrifice, hoping the pain would cease...

After having breakfast with Sir Jer and studying for Molfab, I started feeling abdominal pains already, but didn't mind it because of the lesson... Unfortunately, my legs and torso were becoming numb thus, I felt weak... I even tried to go to my Eco class at Bel but I couldn't take it anymore.

I had to leave, cut class and even my job fair shifts that day. When I was home, I really couldn't move. It was as if I had been paralyzed and all my energy got lost.

At least I didn't have to feel "paralyzed" today. I still feel pains but not that dreadful anymore. Thank God for Dolfenal, Ponstan SF and all those pain relievers. Without those, I wouldn't be able to walk or move.

Then again, I couldn't decipher the real reason why God gave all women this freaking damn sickness. Was it because of what Eve did? I don't think I'd consider this as a blessing...but that's part of life.... I guess I have no other choice but to live with it for as long as I live.

(change topic)

Just a digression... as I was checking my emails, I read my horoscope and it said,

Mend fences with someone from your past. That doesn't mean you two necessarily have to be friends again. (Heck, you may not even have to contact them directly.) But you do have to make peace with what happened.


I just saw him a while ago, but again and again, I couldn't say hi or even look at him since he was busy walking and talking at the same time... so I walked fast and pretended I didn't have any idea that he was there walking behind me.

Damn, I wanted to make amends already. I really wanted to mend fences with that certain someone from the past. Too bad, my ego won't let me.

Maybe it's not yet time. Maybe this conflict will never end. (I hope not.)