You are the master of your life, and the Universe is answering your every command. Don't become mesmerized by the pictures that have appeared if they are not what you want. Take responsibility for them, make light of them if you can, and let them go. Then think new thoughts of what you want, feel them, and be grateful that it is done.--The Secretyes, it's all in the mind.
constantly deals with nostalgia, hope, optimism and everything in between. Mostly random musings about the ordinary, but think again. A space to remind her of a past worth remembering and a future worth waiting for.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
it's all in the mind
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
hopeful attempt
Changes do come for the better and also when you least expect it to happen.
I've been reading The Secret the other day and I'm still trying to believe that positive thinking does indeed help one achieve his dreams or to say realistically, goals. It's great having to lessen our fear and anxiety about what's to happen in the future or having our prayers and wishes answered by the Lord.
When it comes to believing and having faith, my life is a perfect example of a rollercoaster ride. I was born and raised as a Catholic, with a religious family and a Catholic education. It was when I reached high school that I started missing the Sunday masses because of seemingly more important things i.e. my academics or anything school-related. Reaching college was both better and worse as years went by. At first, I attended those masses held in the chapel and would even go there whenever i needed peace and quiet. Not that the library isn't peaceful enough; it was the chapel where i found inner peace.
But things changed. I was too busy for all these and for the rest of those religious 'requirements' that were too much for me. Theology was the only avenue where I could talk to Him (although i must admit hating the subject for i didn't even know why it takes more of my time than my majors) and before i went to bed. At least this tradition of praying before sleeping never got lost within me.
And when Philosophy came specifically the Philosophy of Religion, it was one of those interesting subjects i valued and actually enjoyed studying probably because this was the most accessible way for me to understand the Divine better. Don't get me wrong--I do believe there's a God but I just don't get if He truly exists or if he's just an illusion people make to rationalize their lives and the problems they have. So this subject allowed me to question his existence (unlike Theology where it's already a given) and that somewhat gave me a sense of clarity.
The most memorable topic from that subject was about Marcel's Hope. Hope is one of those misunderstood words or worse, overused ones that may be an understatement to what it really is. My grandmother's condition is now unpredictable after having a stroke and now, pneumonia. She's in the ICU and all I can do is Hope. I can contribute with the researches whether to have the tracheotomy or not and after that, I am left to being patient and hopeful.
Hope is operative within the context of time hence, the need for patience. It's true that when we don't have any other option/way to save someone from being a captive of their illness, it's when we come to Him and at least try to pray for a better change. And with this patience comes the need to wait but my attempt to divert my mind from thinking about her condition is futile. I have read books, played the guitar and piano, surfed the net and talked to my friends but nothing changed. All the more that my passion for medicine is pushed to a higher level that I can't wait to become a doctor and do what I can to help; so i can finally not feel helpless about this family problem.
My passion has never faded but reality bites. Why does this have to happen now and not when I'm already a surgeon? I terribly miss my lola. I miss her support and eagerness whenever I have a story to tell her or just updates that I've seen this special person and spent time with him. I miss the lola who was just there when I needed her and when my parents were mad at me. Now she can't even talk or move. What's worse, chasing her breath so she can live? This is too much.
But hope is only possible when there is despair. Perhaps it's one of God's tests... for the family members to be closer with each other and for all of us to keep the faith.. To be strong for our beloved grandmother.
I'll give that positive thinking a try. Who knows, it may just be the solution we've been waiting for.
I've been reading The Secret the other day and I'm still trying to believe that positive thinking does indeed help one achieve his dreams or to say realistically, goals. It's great having to lessen our fear and anxiety about what's to happen in the future or having our prayers and wishes answered by the Lord.
When it comes to believing and having faith, my life is a perfect example of a rollercoaster ride. I was born and raised as a Catholic, with a religious family and a Catholic education. It was when I reached high school that I started missing the Sunday masses because of seemingly more important things i.e. my academics or anything school-related. Reaching college was both better and worse as years went by. At first, I attended those masses held in the chapel and would even go there whenever i needed peace and quiet. Not that the library isn't peaceful enough; it was the chapel where i found inner peace.
But things changed. I was too busy for all these and for the rest of those religious 'requirements' that were too much for me. Theology was the only avenue where I could talk to Him (although i must admit hating the subject for i didn't even know why it takes more of my time than my majors) and before i went to bed. At least this tradition of praying before sleeping never got lost within me.
And when Philosophy came specifically the Philosophy of Religion, it was one of those interesting subjects i valued and actually enjoyed studying probably because this was the most accessible way for me to understand the Divine better. Don't get me wrong--I do believe there's a God but I just don't get if He truly exists or if he's just an illusion people make to rationalize their lives and the problems they have. So this subject allowed me to question his existence (unlike Theology where it's already a given) and that somewhat gave me a sense of clarity.
The most memorable topic from that subject was about Marcel's Hope. Hope is one of those misunderstood words or worse, overused ones that may be an understatement to what it really is. My grandmother's condition is now unpredictable after having a stroke and now, pneumonia. She's in the ICU and all I can do is Hope. I can contribute with the researches whether to have the tracheotomy or not and after that, I am left to being patient and hopeful.
Hope is operative within the context of time hence, the need for patience. It's true that when we don't have any other option/way to save someone from being a captive of their illness, it's when we come to Him and at least try to pray for a better change. And with this patience comes the need to wait but my attempt to divert my mind from thinking about her condition is futile. I have read books, played the guitar and piano, surfed the net and talked to my friends but nothing changed. All the more that my passion for medicine is pushed to a higher level that I can't wait to become a doctor and do what I can to help; so i can finally not feel helpless about this family problem.
My passion has never faded but reality bites. Why does this have to happen now and not when I'm already a surgeon? I terribly miss my lola. I miss her support and eagerness whenever I have a story to tell her or just updates that I've seen this special person and spent time with him. I miss the lola who was just there when I needed her and when my parents were mad at me. Now she can't even talk or move. What's worse, chasing her breath so she can live? This is too much.
But hope is only possible when there is despair. Perhaps it's one of God's tests... for the family members to be closer with each other and for all of us to keep the faith.. To be strong for our beloved grandmother.
I'll give that positive thinking a try. Who knows, it may just be the solution we've been waiting for.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
the bigger picture
In the middle of all the science-related work, 3 labreps for Wednesday and a thesis extended abstract due on Monday, I resorted to watching the new Grey's Anatomy episode right after it finished downloading and definitely, time was not wasted. Not at all.
Back in the previous entry about having said that i've sensed something's missing lately and with it comes this uncertainty of sorts, I now come to see a bigger picture of what's out there. What I should hope for.
The episode started with Jeffrey Dean Morgan narrating (one of my favorite characters in the show) about the reality of heaven and hell:
Denny: I believe in heaven; I also believe in hell. I've never seen either but I believe they exist. They have to exist because without a heaven, without a hell-- we're all just heading for limbo.
With all its issues scattered and unfinished, it has been one of those shows that you can't wait to see what happens next and true enough, every scene made me ask for more.. Every love story had their defining moments showing how they have realized their mistakes, the truth, and change that leads to maturity.
The ending was the best. I feel for Meredith and I love the moment Derek stood waiting and comforted her up to the point when he seemed helpless and asked for Cristina's help. He's one of those guys who'd run the risk proving how willing he is to hold on and protect their future. :)
Heaven, hell, limbo. No one really knows where we're going or what's waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say for sure with absolute certainty, it's the drama moments that take us to another place: moments of heaven on earth. And maybe for now, that's all we need to know.
There are only a few shows and movies that make me feel like this: teary-eyed and moved. It's not the ordinary goosebumps, it's one of those moments of heaven on earth... just when i have realized the bigger picture.
Friday, January 23, 2009
je ne sais pas
Where shall I even start?
With all the productivity for thesis (the rush for more data, editing our paper, and more specimens to prepare for the SEM forum on Sat), Aegis (several meetings and scheduled photoshoots here and there, updates, revisions for the blueprint pages, etc) acads (completion of requirements, good grades and then some), job fair and even family matters,
there's definitely something missing. I might seem to neglect something because of the overwhelming schedule and obligations to fulfill but i'm quite certain there should be something more.
I'm left with the uncertainty but I remain optimistic and hopeful on what lies in the coming weeks and few months left for my main project (the yearbook); and of course, thrilled for my batchmates and friends who are about to enter a new realm that awaits them in their respective careers.
As for me, i don't know. I'd rather wait and see. :)
With all the productivity for thesis (the rush for more data, editing our paper, and more specimens to prepare for the SEM forum on Sat), Aegis (several meetings and scheduled photoshoots here and there, updates, revisions for the blueprint pages, etc) acads (completion of requirements, good grades and then some), job fair and even family matters,
there's definitely something missing. I might seem to neglect something because of the overwhelming schedule and obligations to fulfill but i'm quite certain there should be something more.
I'm left with the uncertainty but I remain optimistic and hopeful on what lies in the coming weeks and few months left for my main project (the yearbook); and of course, thrilled for my batchmates and friends who are about to enter a new realm that awaits them in their respective careers.
As for me, i don't know. I'd rather wait and see. :)
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Ægis Bulletin No. 2
Issue No. 2
Contact Details
The Ateneo Aegis 2009 Editorial Board, in consultation with the admin, will not be including the seniors' contact details in the yearbook anymore for privacy and security reasons.
Grad Pic Distribution
The distribution of graduation pictures will be on January 26-30 (Monday – Friday) at the Colayco Pavilion (Lower Part), from 8:00am to 4:30 pm.
Photo package balance and refunds for the Creative shot winners should be settled on the venue upon claiming your grad pictures.
Please bring your receipts.
Yearbook
You may still purchase a yearbook until February 2009 in case you were not able to during the registration period.
- Get an order form from the Aegis Room (MVP 207)
- Fill up the form with the necessary information
- Pay the cashier
iYearbook
The Interactive Yearbook is a collection of poems, articles, videos, movie clips, music, photos and art works that encapsulate the four years you've spent at the Ateneo. ALL SENIORS are invited to share their photo, video, music or literary works with the whole batch by contributing to the content of the Interactive Yearbook (iYearbook).
File formats accepted
- Photo (photography and art works) - JPEG (.jpg/.jpeg)
- Video (documentaries, movie clips, etc.) - MPEG (.mpg/.mpeg) or SWF (.swf)
- Literary (poems, short stories, articles, letters, etc.) - RTF (.rtf) or DOC (.doc)
- Music - MP3 (.mp3)
Submission format
- Save your submission/s in a CD. Label your CD by writing your name (or group name for group submissions) and content type of your submission (i.e., Photo, Video, Literary, or Music) on the CD. Do not compress your submission/s into an archive (.zip/.rar). Team Ægis will not edit/revise your submission, so make sure that whatever you submit has been finalized already.
- In your CD, include an RTF or DOC file containing your name, contact information, and the title and short description (maximum of 7 sentences) of your submission. For multiple submissions (e.g., photos and literary works), please make sure that each submission has its own title and description.
How to submit
- Submission is from January 19 to February 7, from 9:00am-4:30pm (weekdays) or 9:00am-12:00nn(weekends)
- Drop your CDs in the designated boxes inside the Ægis room (MVP 207). For individual submissions: place your CD in the box labeled Individual Submissions.For group submissions: place your CD in the box labeled Group Submissions.
The deadline of submissions for the iYearbook is on February 7, 2009 (Saturday) at 12:00nn.
Visit the Aegis Website (http://aegis09.ateneo.edu) regularly for important announcements and updates
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Christmas thought
These past few weeks have been too busy for me. Aegis work has taken its toll...well, at least NOW.
It's almost Christmas but i'm still on Work mode until God knows when... probably after i've finished this re-checking and editing. But while listening to some Christmas songs to lighten the mood, a certain line from "A Perfect Christmas" made me stop ergo, write this blog. :)
"simple pleasures are made special too, when they're shared with you."
It's not just that line that made me pause, look back and rest. It's how i realized that with whatever occasion, it is more important whom you spend it with than how and where you celebrate the true meaning of Christmas.
I am missing other people in my life. You know who you are and i hope i'd be able to spend the holidays with you too, but my hectic schedule won't let me.
i'll see you next year. :) Happy Holidays and all the best for a better year ahead!
note: this blogpost is merely my way of taking a break from the eye strain after all the editing of the databases before the final revisions/printing. It's about time to update this blog, anyway. ;)
It's almost Christmas but i'm still on Work mode until God knows when... probably after i've finished this re-checking and editing. But while listening to some Christmas songs to lighten the mood, a certain line from "A Perfect Christmas" made me stop ergo, write this blog. :)
"simple pleasures are made special too, when they're shared with you."
It's not just that line that made me pause, look back and rest. It's how i realized that with whatever occasion, it is more important whom you spend it with than how and where you celebrate the true meaning of Christmas.
I am missing other people in my life. You know who you are and i hope i'd be able to spend the holidays with you too, but my hectic schedule won't let me.
i'll see you next year. :) Happy Holidays and all the best for a better year ahead!
note: this blogpost is merely my way of taking a break from the eye strain after all the editing of the databases before the final revisions/printing. It's about time to update this blog, anyway. ;)
Friday, November 21, 2008
Thank You
On behalf of the Editorial Board of the 2009 Ateneo Aegis, I would like to extend my gratitude to every Senior who participated in the Batch Pictorial. I am THANKFUL for the turn-out of students who came and wore their desired Aegis Color. It was unexpectedly many.
Many thanks & i hope everyone had fun in one way or another!
Let's! :)
Sassy Guerrero
Editor-in-Chief, The 2009 Ateneo Aegis
Many thanks & i hope everyone had fun in one way or another!
Let's! :)
Sassy Guerrero
Editor-in-Chief, The 2009 Ateneo Aegis
Friday, November 14, 2008
Thursday, August 14, 2008
somebody get me the number to Webster right now
THIS EXTREME ELATION is a pabaon of sorts for my immersion and the long break. I can't seem to find the right words to describe this emotion.
but still, happiness is all over the place tonight.
and will continue lasting until the next "pabaon" comes. :))
happy happy happy :) :)
but still, happiness is all over the place tonight.
and will continue lasting until the next "pabaon" comes. :))
happy happy happy :) :)
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Friday, July 04, 2008
ASLA 7!!
Apply for ASLA in just 3 easy steps!
Be the change. Submit now!
This is Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly.
Creating Ripples of Change.
--
Secretariat and Alumni Relations Team
Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly
asla.secretariat@ gmail.com
http://www.aslaonli ne.netAttachment: Batch7_appform.pdf
1) Get a copy of the application form.
2) Accomplish the requirements and place them inside a short brown envelope.
3) Submit your envelope in the ASLA dropbox in the Sanggu Room from June 30 - July 11 or visit us in the Doghouse from July 14 - 18.
Application forms are available here!
- www.aslaonline.net
- promoboard at EDSAwalk
- ASLA alumni
- Org Presidents
- Email blasts
- Sanggu Room-MVP
Be the change. Submit now!
This is Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly.
Creating Ripples of Change.
--
Secretariat and Alumni Relations Team
Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly
asla.secretariat@ gmail.com
http://www.aslaonli ne.net
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Join Team Aegis 2009! Get up and Go!
Join Team Aegis 2009.
GET UP AND GO!
Application forms are available at
Promo Board 15.
All year levels can join.
Please sign-up for an interview slot after.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Join Team Aegis 2009! Get up and Go!
Application Forms will be handed out at the ID Validation area inKostka 202.
For concerns and inquiries, email us atateneoaegis09@gmail.com
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
fries and ice cream
i am so happy for the outcome. alam nyo [fab 4] kung bakit.
you'll expect more than the fries and ice cream, more laughter and good times, among others.. if this happens again.
hopefully for the remaining semesters and college days. i'm crossing my fingers.
i love you, guys. :) huuuuuuuuug!
you'll expect more than the fries and ice cream, more laughter and good times, among others.. if this happens again.
hopefully for the remaining semesters and college days. i'm crossing my fingers.
i love you, guys. :) huuuuuuuuug!
Thursday, May 22, 2008
progression
DAVID COOK WINS AMERICAN IDOL 2008.
He has been one of the most influential singers to me and i bet i couldn't have survived the last 2 weeks of summer sem if it weren't for his songs and consistent performances. Talk about pure, captivating talent.
I must admit, i'm not fond of rock music but David Cook brought the flavor i've never thought of before. He wasn't that good when he started in the competition, but the progression was definitely unbelievable. As what he had said last night, "i see this [the contest] as a progression." and that's what makes everything that he had performed so special to me. Fourth year summer sem is almost over [just one more proj and paper for submission] and i cannot believe how i have progressed much in terms of maturity, focus and determination.
Thesis proposal oral defense was even better than i have expected. I am so happy and blessed to have chosen the right adviser and topic for this. Happiness and contentment is more than enough to explain everything that i've experienced this summer for thesis. Here's to hoping more improvements and progression for the group and especially for the study.
Aegis EB has finally met as a whole group last night. I must say this will be one of my closest families in college. Fun spells the work that we put here and even though we may be very very busy for the whole year, i am pretty much sure that things will be optimistically better than the previous years. After all, it's the 150th year of the Ateneo. I'm crossing my fingers. :)
David Cook is my Idol. Not only has he inspired me to do better in acads and org life, i have learned to appreciate a new genre of music that motivates me to become a better person. He is definitely worthy of this blog and recognition [even if he won't be able to read this hahaha].
Happy days are here again, with regcom [fab 4!!] fast approaching and more Aegis and Thesis.
There's definitely no stopping now.
He has been one of the most influential singers to me and i bet i couldn't have survived the last 2 weeks of summer sem if it weren't for his songs and consistent performances. Talk about pure, captivating talent.
I must admit, i'm not fond of rock music but David Cook brought the flavor i've never thought of before. He wasn't that good when he started in the competition, but the progression was definitely unbelievable. As what he had said last night, "i see this [the contest] as a progression." and that's what makes everything that he had performed so special to me. Fourth year summer sem is almost over [just one more proj and paper for submission] and i cannot believe how i have progressed much in terms of maturity, focus and determination.
Thesis proposal oral defense was even better than i have expected. I am so happy and blessed to have chosen the right adviser and topic for this. Happiness and contentment is more than enough to explain everything that i've experienced this summer for thesis. Here's to hoping more improvements and progression for the group and especially for the study.
Aegis EB has finally met as a whole group last night. I must say this will be one of my closest families in college. Fun spells the work that we put here and even though we may be very very busy for the whole year, i am pretty much sure that things will be optimistically better than the previous years. After all, it's the 150th year of the Ateneo. I'm crossing my fingers. :)
David Cook is my Idol. Not only has he inspired me to do better in acads and org life, i have learned to appreciate a new genre of music that motivates me to become a better person. He is definitely worthy of this blog and recognition [even if he won't be able to read this hahaha].
Happy days are here again, with regcom [fab 4!!] fast approaching and more Aegis and Thesis.
There's definitely no stopping now.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
two opposing views
travel bags... or firecrackers?
alternate realities and sunday mornings.let things happen spontaneously. :)
but thanks for that last night ;)
alternate realities and sunday mornings.let things happen spontaneously. :)
but thanks for that last night ;)
Saturday, February 09, 2008
REGCOM '08: We Cue the Shots :)
REGCOM is looking for interested incoming JUNIOR and SENIORapplicants.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Sunday, January 20, 2008
from popo who got it from max
Med specialty aptitude test
okay, i didnt get what i wanted. try this out, it's fun :)
| Rank |  Specialty | Score |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | thoracic surgery | 46 |
| 2 | plastic surgery | 46 |
| 3 | occupational med | 45 |
| 4 | pathology | 45 |
| 5 | physical med & rehabilitation | 44 |
| 6 | nephrology | 44 |
| 7 | hematology | 43 |
| 8 | radiation oncology | 43 |
| 9 | aerospace med | 43 |
| 10 | radiology | 43 |
| 11 | psychiatry | 43 |
| 12 | otolaryngology | 43 |
| 13 | ophthalmology | 43 |
| 14 | rheumatology | 43 |
| 15 | pulmonology | 42 |
| 16 | nuclear med | 42 |
| 17 | preventive med | 42 |
| 18 | allergy & immunology | 42 |
| 19 | emergency med | 42 |
| 20 | infectious disease | 42 |
| 21 | urology | 41 |
| 22 | med oncology | 41 |
| 23 | gastroenterology | 41 |
| 24 | endocrinology | 41 |
| 25 | cardiology | 41 |
| 26 | general surgery | 41 |
| 27 | neurology | 41 |
| 28 | neurosurgery | 41 |
| 29 | orthopaedic surgery | 40 |
| 30 | general internal med | 40 |
| 31 | colon & rectal surgery | 40 |
| 32 | anesthesiology | 40 |
| 33 | dermatology | 39 |
| 34 | pediatrics | 39 |
| 35 | obstetrics/gynecology | 37 |
| 36 | family practice | 36 |
okay, i didnt get what i wanted. try this out, it's fun :)
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